Somervillin

So Proud now Jeff's an award winning Director!!

Home alone tonight, B's working in RI for some tv show...or something- I never know. so i'm vegging out after a long day of work watching the one channel that comes in clearly..PBS! OOooo A nova special on string theory...?! I uploaded a ton of pictures to face book last night- if you want to check out the apartment pre move in. I kinda want to see the new woody alan movie...looks funny, except for the whole tarot card serial killer motif...what eve. Saw A Skanner Darkley the other week- cant even remember if i mentiond this or not but it was defnitly good- i'd see it again.

night

worked today and will work tomorrow- I dont see any end to me working, being to tierd to do fun things, sleeping, and then going to work again only to be again to tierd to stay up late and go to clubs and enjoy my youth...ROAR!!! *sigh* Brian's ex-room mate drove down to stay with us for who knows how long, he doesn't even know....? maybe a day maybe 3 days...dont know- dont care, he'll entertain brian for a while. Its fucking hot and brian and derrick went to the "Sky Bar" down the street to see if its as sketchy as it looks. Brian was being kind and trying to find something all of us could go out and do together, ie go to a bar that also serves food so that i as a soon to be 21 yr old could go in and sit and sip some 7up. Eh, whatever i was to tierd to go sit on a hot train for 30 min. to sit in a hot bar...
so now i've been musing on having lived with my BF for a month and a half.
I trust him, but know that though he trusts me hes not ready to surrender all of his options- even though he sort of has- just not officially. I feel like i'm at a point where i'm happy to take care of him, and take him as he is good and bad, teeth grinding and all. I'm sure he accepts me in the same way but theres never any way to know for sure what another person thinks- i know and trust that eh loves me and will continue to take care of me. so what am i saying exactly? just that, life is always changing and so nothing is ever definite but i feel like this thing i have with him is constant. I write this more for my own benifit than yours- something to remind me that i mused on such things and ...whatevere. we have skunks living in our back yard...very cute one who waddle around in the bruck and click at eachother...or whatever- they make funny noises and walk funny.

boardom has set in again and i think i'll go to sleep before they get back...work tomorrow

hurray

-saw les claypool at the bookstore i work at, there must have been 200 people there to hear him read from his new book.

well went Back up to keene to see the family yesterday-nothing crazy special- got to see Zach and My grandpa and his SCARRY GF Rose. had a mini-cook out and then brian and I went and visited his ex-roommate Katie in her new digs. he hadn't spoken to her in a long i mean LONG time so it was good for him. Poor brian though, on the long drive back to somerville I started thinking about how much i miss my grandma and how the woman my grandpa is with now is so completly different from her and then of course thinking about how she died and how sad i was then...so i started to cry...which for brian must have been weird because minutes before this we were talkign and joking ..so i definitly suprised him with my display of water works. So any way- miss grandma smith...totally cool awesome woman who i aspire to be.
Today I went back to work at teh frame shop...framed shit as usual and got cuts alover my hands from all the broken glass. *sigh* had to walk there this AM stand for 8.75 hours and then walk home (up hill). Brians working for VH1 ilming something on some guy who was in LFO or something- i'm not exactly sure but he wont be home till LATE, so i'm thinking i'll attack the apartment clean..unpack and sort...maybe just be a bum online or bake some cookies. one things for sure i need to either a. import some friends or make some new ones-

So, Today is the day that marks Brian and my aniversary- one whole year!  And Lucky  for me when i left NH one of my employers gave me a little bonus and said- take your boyfriend out to dinner at a fancy place in Boston.  We decided that with 100$ to burn on food we'd go to the Northend- some nice little italian place.  We decided based on websites to go to Luca's- it had the most interesting menu of them all. Brian picked my up from work with a bunch of roses and then we went and got dressed up- only to ride the T (hee hee).  I didn't bring anything- except a jacket...we were sorta hoping that they wouldn't card me so we could get some wine- but they did and of course i had to card to be carded with.  either way we weren't given any wine.  we both ordered the salmon, and the chocolate cake.  After dinner we went and walked around the north end and quincy market- sat around on the park benches people watching then we decided it was time to go home, and thats when things get interesting...now were home and both ill...probably food poisoning.  So the one and only time i'll ever pay 100$ for a meal brian and I get deathly ill.....ARG! shoudl have stayed home and cooked.